June 9, 2011

19 years.

Okay, so tomorrow is my 20th birthday and that's really really exciting for me. For some reason I'm convinced that 20 is a bigger milestone than 21, even though I'll probably beg to differ a year from now haha. It's weird to think that this is my last day as a teenager. I can clearly recall every birthday from 13 to 19, all full of memories and fun and most of all, love. Love is the stand out word to describe the last 7 years of my life. I met the most amazing people in the world from middle school to high school to college. Some I talk to all the time and some I've lost touch with. I've moved once, changing my life drastically for the better. I had the wonderful pleasure of falling in love twice with two guys that I regret nothing with. I was promoted from 8th grade, I graduated from high school, I started at Arizona State, went to real estate school, and now I'm following my heart at Le Cordon Bleu.

This past block of classes has by far been the rockiest for me. It was my second Culinary class, one that I anticipated I wouldn't enjoy. Boy, was I right. I'm not a quitter. I never have been. I'm a determined and seriously ambitious person, so for everything to affect me the way it has shocked me. Almost everyday on the drive to school, I'd get nauseous. In class, I'd get really hot and dizzy and be so close to passing out. I attributed it the first time to being sick, but soon it was a daily thing. This class overwhelmed me more than anything I've ever experienced. I had severe anxiety to the point where I just didn't go to class anymore. I stopped going. My parents found out and eventually pushed me to contact the school and reevaluate everything. I was after all paying thousands and thousands of dollars to pursue my dream. Culinary class never seemed to be a part of my dream because if I was doing something I loved, why did I always feel so anxious and close to tears because of it? I met with my counselor and told her that I wanted to switch programs. Instead of going for my associates and graduating in November 2012, I will be receiving a certificate in Patisserie and Baking and graduating sometime between November 2011 and February 2012.

Wow, this is really happening I guess. You guys are some of the first to know besides my parents. I'm really really excited. It's just starting to hit me, but I know I'm just getting closer to all of my plans and dreams. I think it's also the perfect way to start out my 20's. Thank you all so much for your constant support. I really appreciate and value you each one of you that reads. You mean the world to me. Thank you for sticking by me for another year. :) Enjoy your Thursday lovelies and enjoy a peek into my birthdays from my sweet sixteen through my 19th. :)

 Sweet Sixteen

 17th Birthday - Surprise Rockstar Party

 18th - Freaks & Geeks

19th - Nautical Aquarium



  1. Happy birthday. Don't second guess yourself when you're following your heart and being true to who you really are... that sounds cheesy, but I mean it. Sorry I haven't been able to be there for you lately. Sending love, thoughts and prayers your way always.

  2. I had a nerd party for my 17th birthday :). The pictures look so similar to the one of your freaks and geeks party lol. Happy birthday!