October 7, 2010

The Downside to Coaching.

“Do everything with so much love in your heart that you would never want to do it any other way.”

This will be quick. I never posted my tuesday ten or anything yesterday because of that girl smothering me right there. Paula is my number two varsity player and one of the brightest rays of sunshine on the team. She has slowly become like a little sister to me. She has dealt with more than her fair share of crap at home, but still is one of my best players and amazing student. I found out she was in the hospital because of her mom and it broke my heart. I was finally seeing the downside to coaching because of how involved I was and how much I cared. She was off the team a week before state and state was everything she worked for, all season. At the game yesterday, without her there, the team was in a completely different state of mind including myself and Coach. We went 1-8 and got killed by Highland. It was our last season match and it was a difficult lose to swallow. I could barely give my "famous" speeches that overuse the word, "seriously." I got to talk to her on the phone twice and could barely hold back tears. Some of the girls and I went to see her last night and I'm glad I did, despite how heartbreaking it was seeing her under 24 hour supervision. All of this happened before I made the announcement to the girls that I would be returning next year as an assistant coach and the following year as a head coach. 

I found that quote above and found it to apply wholeheartedly to everything in my life. I'm not one to do something halfway without love, passion, or drive. It's the way I coach. I feel like I care too much sometimes especially after seeing how I could barely function yesterday with all the worrying. Blah, I don't know. I just wanted to apologize for leaving you hanging. Thank you for all the new comments and followers, guys. It's very exciting for me. :)


1 comment:

  1. What happened to her?

    I'm so sorry to hear about this but I'm excited you're going to continue coaching these ladies. You seem to love it.